An Update: New Book, Essays, Videos to Come…

It has been quiet some time since I last posted on here, but there is a reason. Besides life, I have been plotting my new book(s), essays and other projects. As important as it is for me to focus on the latest news, especially regarding police brutality and abortion, however I want to do more in depth research and writings regarding certain topics I will list below.

Since prior to even being able to write I dreamed of being a writer. That passion and love has never faded, only grown. Research and writing both are in my soul and it is truly what I hope to do for a living for it isn’t a job, rather a blessing.

Currently, I am working on an essay which discusses the brain of infants and how abuse/neglect/etc impacts us as adults. In addition, I am working on a book about the so called War on Drugs and ways we could improve addiction and even dealing.

I am also working on rehabilitation projects for drug users, most specifically on Heroin, the long term impacts that no one discusses and the latest research on how to help addicts. Finally, I am compiling a presentation and essay regarding abortion, quality of life and women’s rights.

I know these topics seem a bit broad, but there is so much to do and so little time.

I have many other projects planned, but for now these are the ones I am working on and I hope so desperately will impact others in a positive way.  One upcoming project is to do with domestic violence/abuse and mental health (no relation).

Sadly, because I can’t do all of this, volunteer and work I neglect my blog at times and that hurts me as it truly is another passion of mine. As much as I would love to have a website/blog that brings in money so I can get by while doing the things I love the most [i.e., research, writing- exposing truth(s)] it sadly doesn’t pay. I don’t want to be rich, I just would like to be able to eat and keep my internet on so I can continue the research I so love doing. All I need is just enough to get by.

I am going to add a donation button, I don’t expect anything but if anyone does make a donation so that I can make my dream of being a writer/researcher possible, I will be eternally grateful. I also am more than willing to do freelance graphic design, writing, and things of the like for those interested. I want to live life exposing truth, researching, writing, learning… I don’t want handouts; I am more than happy to work for money, if anyone is willing to give me a chance.

Back to the topic!

If I am able to begin making even a bit of money here and with my current projects I will be able to spend a lot more time on here and that is something I long for. I have plans for my page that I just have no time to get around to due to the other projects and life, but I am so desperate for work, freelance, donations; anything.

In case donations or freelance gigs don’t occur, please do follow me on twitter as I post updates there very regularly. My twitter account can be found here -> @aPoeticTragedy

I also do youtube videos from time to time, I hope to increase this. You can find my youtube channel, HERE.

All I need is a chance and I know I can accomplish something. I am leaving gmail and searching for a more secure email server so I will be posting that up shortly. I also want to close this by saying, if I have not responded to you email, text, messages, etc it is not personal.

My mind is a bit scattered but it by no means is me intentionally ignoring any of you; all emails shall be responded to 🙂 Except hate mail. I am done with that, I don’t read it so please don’t waste your time. 🙂

Last but not least this is not me saying this blog is shutting down; far from it. I just want all readers who have stood by me to know I am trying my very hardest to balance it all and in time I hope to be able to have the career and more free time to spend on my blog.

So if you’ve stayed with me this long, thank you. Stay tuned, for lots more is to come, including a new book and other writings as well as videos. I will post here as I can, please don’t give up!

Excellent Resource for Abused Women Internationally!

I am working on so many projects at the moment… But this is vital information, I believe. It is an international website with abundant information for victims of both rape and/or domestic abuse. The website is called the “International Directory of Domestic Violence Agencies”, it is available in over 100 languages. Whether you are in America, England, Cairo; wherever, this website is full of information regarding things such as your legal rights regarding domestic violence and much, much more.

I plan on finally updating the domestic violence *page* at the top ^ with a lot of other resources and summaries of each state’s laws regarding domestic violence, but until then I truly believe this is a website vital to all women AND men 🙂 check it out by clicking HERE.

Aprox. 90 precent of Women in Prison as of 2008 are in for Killing Abusive Partner – While Abusers Get Little to No Time

“The average prison sentence for men who kill their intimate partners is 2 to 6 years. Women who kill their partners are sentenced, on average, to 15 years.

A pair of Maryland cases vividly illustrates this inequality in sentencing. In one case, a judge in Baltimore County, Maryland sentenced Kenneth Peacock to 18 months for killing his unfaithful wife. The very next day, another judge in the same county sentenced Patricia Ann Hawkins to three years in prison for killing her abusive husband. Significantly, the prosecutor in the Peacock case requested a sentence twice as long as the one imposed, while the prosecutor in the Hawkins case requested one-third of the sentence imposed.”

“As many as 90% of the women in prison today [2008] for killing men had been battered by those men.”

Go here for more info and on what you can do.
~ The Michigan Women’s Justice & Clemency Project

Domestic Abuse: She Won’t Listen to Me… Maybe You Will & Save Yourself, and Your Children, From Suffering More…

I know there are plenty of reasons women stay in abusive relationships (and I know the same for men in these relationships- I refer to women for this is a personal post to me, but abuse on men is just as wrong and detrimental). I know there is nothing I can do or say that will make someone open their eyes and see what is on the other side of life, that after you get through the terrifying “what if” and “is it me” “am I crazy” “what about money and the children” or “what about our safety?” and the countless other responses that are legitimate in the hearts of those saying it. They also may be legitimate concerns all around; but at the end of the day we have to take a risk or it is clear what will change…and that’s nothing.

Not Going To Let The Government Break My Spirit (bit personal..again.)

This morning I found out some very disheartening, disappointing, sad and a bit scary news regarding “a” domestic violence case. Though deep down this verdict was expected, I didn’t anticipate it being THIS dismissed. They didn’t read my statement or ask questions. The judge simply came in, said he had the authority to over rule the DA and was doing so.

The DA had suggested probation, fine and anger managment (that last part is funny to me- abusers don’t change). The judge dismissed punishment because of his age, not taking into consideration or not CARING that he is the same age as the woman he has been severely and sickeningly been abusing for over 40 years. His other reason was because he “hadn’t been in trouble before”….

There is a reason he had never been “in trouble” before and that is because he used to be a “high” ranking and respected member of law enforcement. Anytime there was suspicions and police were ordered to speak to the abused, he always managed to remove the investigation request, so no one every came to speak.

Now he is older and retired but he is also more sick of an abuser now than he has been in about 20 years. No one was ever brave enough to call the police and make a statement. Though I am not a police fan due to their tendency to be killers and abusers themselves, I knew this had to be documented so I am the one who called the police and filed the statement which landed him in jail and court, yes, for the first time.

Had the judge asked, he would have known he had never been in trouble because no one was willing to go against him in the years past. So the verdict is, guilty, as he had already plead guilty

The judge gave him a fine and that’s it. Another day of punishing no real crime.

I had expected he wouldnt get all the DA had proposed but nothing other than a small fine, is devastating, but consistent with American law. I will say one more thing and then move on. This ruling cuts deep to me & of course her. It is, as said, another reminder of our failure of a legal system; one which does not care for anyone but men; white, mid to upper class men. Or “one of their own” aka the “law enforcement”… This was something very personal to me, more than I will say, and it has now fallen apart in seconds, and has hit home so hard.

HOWEVER!

As much as I would like to go to sleep and hide, I won’t. It isn’t even an option. For through this insane, unjust ruling, I have been reminded (again, not that I needed to be reminded) that the American legal system is unjust, biased, prejudice and we all need to be raising hell and not resting until positive change occurs.

Here in America, they give harsher time and puinshment to the undeserving i.e., drug “offenders”, computer activists while letting true criminals (i.e., pedophiles, abusers, killers, rapists) walk away too often with a slap on the wrist in comparison; if they even do that.

I am sure most if not all countries are the same when it comes to punishment for domestic abuse & violence.

So in posts to come I will be researching where other countries stand regarding spousal abuse, but first I am going to focus on America. I am also going to get a better layout soon, so different topics will be easier to find.

And with that I end by saying… My fight against domestic violence/abuse has always been “on”- but now it is a priority- I’m fed up up with how women are treated be it not helping save women’s lives or trying to take our rights away, such as abortion. Or politicians saying we ask for rape or because we are women, that’s “what we are here for.”

Just as I fight against racism and police brutality, I now have an equally sized flame of rage for the mistreatment of women, the lack of respect and care from the government & society alike. I am off to study laws and psychological profiles of abusers. I think I may even make a new page solely for this research and resources for abused women. Either way, I am using the injustice given out today to motivate me and fuel my anger, nothing will stop me from fighting for what I believe in, and nothing will stop me from fighting those who threaten any of us. Long ago I dedicated my life to the struggle because Tupac helped me see the truth. And to this day, I will honor that promise I made but with more passion and more dedication than ever before.

The government is hurting us. Put race, gender, sexual preferences, religion, etc aside and get along to demand justice that is rightfully ours. Unite against the real enemies! Stop hating one another and wasting time… There are too many real and threatening laws and issues to waste time. That doesn’t mean give up your passion; I simply wish everyone of every background would take a few moments out of their life to do their part. Educate themselves and then others. We have to stop accepting these unjust laws, racism, sexism, police brutality, the horrific war on drugs and prison system…. Stop accepting life how it is and start working to try and make it better; how it should be.

Whatever it is, just do your part… We all have one.